Last time I was focusing on my breathing, which the whole sensation built from there. This time I actually focused on my heartbeat, I actually was able to not hear my breathing and totally focus on my heart beating.

This time I felt conception and birth of a fetus. All the way up from conception to birth. The most interesting part of it was that I grew to a certain size and then I kept splitting. Instead of actually seeing another being there, it is as if I was each one. And I split 7 times so there was 128 of me. I was looking at it from all different angles. It was really interesting. It got to the point where it was like, I actually tried to split more to see how high of a number I could get myself up to. But I could not get past seven splits. In certain things weather it be religion or mythology, the number 7 holds certain meaning. Like down the casino, lucky number 7, 7 days of the week, base on Judaism there is actually 7 for-parents. There is a lot of things based on 7. I'm thinking that was probably keeping me from being able to split more then that.

It was more of a feeling, it was splitting like an ameba when it doubles itself to form another ameba. Sort of like where the body just forms and then you have two separate entities. I did not have the feeling that I was an ameba, I had the feeling that I was an actual fetus inside the womb. Sort of how identical twins come about. Where an embryo actually splits and it forms two separate embryos. But the splitting wasn't at the level of an embryo stage, it was more of a fetus stage.

I think the whole time I had the feeling of being inside of a womb. It seems like all my floats are based on creation. It is still hard to explain the exact feeling. Each time I split, I was each of the individuals, as a whole. Each one was it's own separate entity, all together they made up the one single unit. Several nodes making up a single system. It got to the point where I knew I was done and I just got out.

I split 7 times, then I just felt as if I was done, that was as far as it was going to go. It probably started about 15 to 20 minutes after I entered the tank and it just continued to the end. After each split was kind of like a stage. First I was a single embryo, then it lead into a fetus and then it took a few minutes and it split into two fetuses. Then a few minutes later the two fetuses spit into 4 and then 8 and then 16, all the way to 128. It seemed like it was really based on the number 2 and the number 7. Ironically enough, if you think about this, 2 with an exponent of 7 you end up with 128. You add up the 3 numbers and you end up with 11, the roman numeral 2, then you are back at the beginning again. It was sort of like the movie 2001 when he became a fetus.

I really didn't have to force myself or try to guide myself down a single path but it seems as if I focused on a single thing. Like the first time I just focused on my breathing and it brought me down a certain path. This time I just focused on my heartbeat then it just brought me down a specific path. It seems as if I don't have to focus on where I go, I just have to focus on the beginning. Where it starts, then it automatically brings me to whatever that's the beginning of.

Additional Notes:

See Zack's First Flotation Session

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